identity.

For this generation of women who have been through the hardships of rejection, displacement, insecurity, the absolute cruelty and burden to strive for perfection our society has placed upon them; for those who are searching for their worth in another man, or in any other fulfillment for that matter, today is for you.


The day will soon come when this generation will realize their true worth. They will know their worth. WE will know it. I believe we are on the cusp of a realization that our fulfillment dwells in one place, our answers come from one source, and His name is Yahweh. His love for us is beginning to be understood. His need for our affections is why we were made. To think that the creator Himself wants our love. Its quite humbling. If we only KNEW how important we are to Him. He made us to live in a freedom, in a confidence, in a liberty that would set this generation free from so much bondage by just ONE PURE touch of His love, a heavenly encounter with Him. Without pretense. Just to give Him the affections He is due!!! My oh my! He went to the cross for the sins we swim around in every day, yet if we would take on His mentality and realize, "It IS FINISHED!" We would be liberated once and for all. All of us have divine appointments. Divine destiny. We have divine dates set by our Maker for our liberation to occur. Let today be a day when you cry out in humility, and seek HIS FACE!!! There are no limits with God. Get Him out of the box, out of your world and step into His!
Freedom, in the beautiful name of Jesus Christ.


Women, if only we would look into the mirror and gaze into the eyes of the created being that Yahweh designed. Get out of this mindset that what you see around you with your eyes is what you should be. Or what you have been told you should be or what you lack is what you must compensate for. Enough with the eating disorders, enough with the self-mutilation, enough with the obsessive workouts, dieting, perfecting of appearance all in seeking approval of others. You were made for a purpose on purpose. Seek God for your destiny in life. Know that you might now look like Mrs. Pretty Princess(who really wants to be), but you can know your worth in Jesus' eyes if you would just behold Him, know Him, seek Him, ask Him. Just ask. How do you see me Jesus? I can guarantee you will get an answer from heaven. 


When we die, we don't take our mortal bodies with us. And heaven sure isn't wrapped up in what the latest fashion trend is, and if you've put on a few pounds in the tummy area. What do we take? Our Spirit. So it would seem that we would seek to put our all into that lifestyle, wouldn't it? Holy Spirit, you are the worthy one, make us Holy like you are holy!


Any man that is worthy of your affections here on this earth is going to notice the you inside of you. Please, don't fall for the perfection lie. You are beautiful the way you are. Never compromise, never settle, never feel insignificant because you do not have a significant other. You are on the right track when you've felt  at peace in Him.


I pray this finds you at the right moment in the right time, and that it blesses you in the name of Jesus, whatever your circumstance.


-Taylor

Beautiful Exhange

My sister got married two weekends ago. Through the rush of planning the parties, her planning the wedding, the wedding "stress", I stood up with her bridesmaid, matron-of-honor, and proudly as her maid-of honor, to witness her join together with Josh Weichman in Holy Matromony (honestly, its what it is so thats what I will call it) and watched my beautiful sister BEAM as a bride coming down the isle. My feelings were unexplainable. The stress was lifted from us all, and floods of memories came back to me and I watched her grow up before my eyes.
I am enamored by love. It fasinates me. I can only say that I am learning of Gods love for us more day by day and how to be in covenant with Him. His love is amazing, His love is ravishing, His love is pure, His love is perfect, His love has settled me. But-to surrender to another person and share a life with them! To know they are flawed and will in fact hurt you and cause internal pain from time to time-knowing this and yielding to the promise of the rest of your days with this person-its the complete picture of trust. To see a person for who they truly are is love. To know a person for who God has called them to be is love, and loyalty in its truest, purest form. Its quite beautiful. Its a beautiful exchange.


" Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonour others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." 1 Corinthians 14 4-8a


I don't allow divorce to enter into my mind anymore. In fact, if I had a dictionary, I'd rip out the word.  Sharing life. Doing life together. To have a best friend for the rest of your days on this earth. We were born to share. We were born to love!!!


If given the chance to have a spouse, Id take it. But I'm given the chance to love every single day of my life. What a beautiful thing. I yield to that. Its taken me a very long time, but I'm beginning to understand the very simplicity of what Jesus did...EVERYTHING.

So, as I finish my daily blog, I leave you with this challenge...let Him love thru you today. Whether it be a stranger, a friend, your spouse, a family member, your boss, anyone He puts in your path. His love is far more powerful that anything we could ever comprehend in our minds. Its the answer your looking for today.

Deep thinker?

Life is full of choices. We risk being wrong each day. But taking chances is worth the risk. It involves a warrior inside of you, a ferverant champion who refuses to let the fear of failure or opposition of the goal in sight get in the way. The passion of your heart can sing a melody so clearly that it shifts the direction in which you were headed and you can know beyond a shadow of a doubt that you were made for such a time as this....for The creator designed you! You can be so in rhythm with the Fathers heart that one glance into the eyes of a broken heart, and you KnOW why your day has led you there. To God be all the glory. What can man truly do (good, that is lasting) apart from Him?
I remember...a flood of memories just came back into my heart and I'm taken back in time into a place where I feel home again. Thank you Jesus for memories, but praise you Lord for Vision! When the creator Himself dwells in us and puts His Vision in us...the possibilities are endless. When the body comes together as one, it's gonna be a beautiful day. Pour it out Lord.


-Taylor

Relationships.

Today I want to speak to the many women and men who are going through or have gone through relationships that came to a bitter end. Some unexpectedly, some slowly dwindled; many unique situations, too many people have been there, and unfortunately many of which were marriages.


 Before I go on, let me proceed to say that the following is about my past. My past had some very traumatic and painful situations that I walked through, and I believe sometimes details need to be left out. Sharing though a blog would be one of those times. I would be more than happy to openly speak with you one on one.


This is part of my testimony; Of how God fought for me through the storm, how He carried me until I was strong enough to walk along side Him. His introduction of His tender love, grace, and affections along the way, then taught me become an Overcomer, and press on toward a goal...I didn't know was truly a call to His love. Simply the love of my Savior...Jesus Christ. The beginning a true love story with my King. 


 My marriage came to a screeching halt right after experiencing a traumatic situation. I'm talking the same day. It left me needing to run into the arms of those I knew would keep me safe and secure. I was vulnerable, scared, in shock, and only those around me knew I would never be the same.


 I was broken, left truly heartbroken, and at times in denial, holding on to any chance that the relationship might mend. In my youth and honestly in my ignorance, I saw the truth right in front of my face and turned a blind eye. I didn't do the things I needed to do. Yet ironically the Lord has promises all throughout His word ;) and I BEGAN to see them unfold through this promise.
 "Romans 8:28 -  And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who^[a]have been called according to his purpose." 


 I remember laying in my bed, grieving the end of the marriage. My best friend tried getting me out of bed, and at times I would. This lasted about two weeks. A serious depression. I remember standing over a three story balcony and feeling apathetic about life and wanting to not even jump, but just drop. But not having the courage to do so.


One night as I was praying I felt a sense of peace that it was all going to be perfectly okay. This is when I met Holy Spirit as the Comforter. He began to reveal Himself to me as all I needed to get through the lonely nights, and days. There WAS a reason to live. I DID have a purpose for living. His Word actually said so. 


Now I went through a season of rebellion-I believe its very important to tell you this because it caused nothing but more pain, delay, heartache, and many  many wounds in others. I drank to numb my pain. Why you might ask after knowing the TRUE Jesus Christ even as the Comforter? Because some wounds go deep. They need the be uprooted and replaced with the TRUTH. My past had come back to haunt me and I couldn't handle the hurt. But God...His love, His knowing...He never left me. The comforter, the Living God was there, and if I had truly known what I was doing, I would have broken down. He is a true being who can be SO grieved. I believe that His heart was so broken, not because I was doing bad things, but because of what caused me to do them. He KNEW my wounds because He was there when they happened. REMEMBER THAT. Once you ask Jesus Christ into your heart, He is there. He loves you SO much, He fights for you...for your affections. He is jealous for you. 


As time went on,  I began to seek truth. I began to feel guilty for the lifestyle I was living, and started going to church events. Then it happened. I actually fell in love with Jesus. It happened actually on an airplane as I read Redeeming Love, as I saw that His love for me was perfect. Nothing I could ever do would make Him love me less. Like I said before, He KNOWS the truth, because He is truth. He knows all because He sees all. He looks at our wounds and says, "I can fix that...would you trust me?" Don't run from the man who died to fix your broken heart. Yes, He IS the mender of the brokenhearted.


How simple is the Love of God. The heart of God can be so delightful, so much fun, and meets every single need. But you have to do this...yep, its a tough one. Nothing but accept Jesus as your SAVIOR and know that His love is what He desires from you. Can it be that simple? I don't know, ask Him. :)


Since this happened (the trauma and divorce) in 2006, I've been through ups and downs but the greatest joys of my life have been in my times with Jesus. He healed me of my pain. I have hope for a brighter future. And you better believe I know its coming. My future gets brighter every day. Yes, in this world we have trouble. But remember...take heart! He overcame this world. And if He overcame this world even for our broken hearts, He must really, truly love us.




Jesus Christ has set me free from this trauma, and the divorce as well and He too can do this for you. 


 Father, I pray in the name of Jesus that you would minister healing to those who are broken who are hurting who are seeking you for healing. For those who actually just happened upon this site and need a touch from you. Jesus restore HOPE today. Let those deep wounds mend NOW in the name of Jesus, and fill them up with your TRUTH. Your freedom. I speak Life in the name of Jesus and I speak divine alignment. Salvation, the Fathers Love, and Joy to overflowing. I pray for relationships to be restored, any that are on the brink of falling apart father you are the Restorer, and I believe for them now in the Mighty name of Jesus. I pray for the alignment of Holy Spirit filled marriages to begin to come forth now, and for faith to be restored for those who are already together or married and might have lost that vision...believe again! 


-Taylor

What about the broken ones?

Day by day I become increasingly more aware at the need for love in our society. I see a world full of people who are wrapped up in mundane tasks, due to the pressures placed upon them by the "American Dream". I see people broken, hurting beyond our comprehension, so brokenhearted, without hope, that it would take such a touch from God to restore them back and increase them to their full potential that many christians have written them off. We have a blinder over our eyes. We continue to look to the left and to the right, and at a pace that seems to be in fast forward motion. If only we would be like David, "LORD, remind me how brief my time on earth will be. Remind me that my days are numbered--how fleeting my life is."-Psalm 39:4
There are not enough people crying out for these brokenhearted. We seek for ourselves. We seek for our own benefit, but not for the brokenhearted. We seek to look like saints, when in fact at times, we ourselves are dying inside. Father, send reformation to our generation. Rid us of our selfishness.

-Taylor

13-LOVE-United.

Living from a place called love and living it out freely has been a desire of mine ever since I came to understand God as TRUE perfect Love back in 2007. This past year, in 2011 it became my lifes goal. It has been an uphill battle at times, due to illness, due to literally not being able to get out of bed. But that is the BEAUTY of love. Love never fails. It is the compelling force that says, NO...this is not about me anymore. It causes you to self check and reevaluate life whenever you begin to have a pity party and say..."I'm NEVER promised tomorrow!!!" Those in my sphere of influence, a.k.a. those that the Lord has allowed me to be able to be surrounded by regularly I am either going to be a blessing to or bring them down. Then you begin to see them so differently, from an eternal perspective. Heidi Baker once told it like this. If you would ever begin to look ever human being in the eyes and see Jesus, you could truly change the world. I love that!!!! I didn't quote it because I might be a little off, but it was around those lines...she sees JESUS CHRIST in ever person she ever comes in contact with. The beggar, the sickest person she has ever seen, the murderer, the prostitute, the child molester, YES....even that person! We all have our issues and if we would get past the idea that we have the right to be judges, and let the Man who is able to judge, the only TRUE Judge, and quit our gossiping and just LOVE people into heaven, then we could truly change our world. To me, this is what Valentines Day is about this year. We are all humans, desiring more in life. I hope that we all can get past this place of drive for excellence, and just LOVE one another into the Kingdom of Heaven and call each other brothers and sisters in Christ. Happy Valentines Day.

-Taylor